How To End a Crush

vored lollipops in my hand as she spoke.

“Noah gave me those.”

“… Huh?”

“He gave me those mint ones in case I ever got a stomach ache.
Also, they’re his favorite kind, anyway.
But I think you’ll be needing them more than me.”

Flora explained as she gently shook her head about, typical of the cutesy style girl that she was.

What? Is mint the favorite flavor of prodigies or something?

I didn’t bother to look down at the mint lollipops she was pointing to in my hand.
I just tightly squeezed my grip around them as I bowed my head to her.

My heart was pounding again.
Again, any fruitless hope and excitement that I still had left within me began to wither and die.

I looked like a fool, and I hated it.

Though my emotions were boiling, it wasn’t in my nature to disturb the relationship between Flora, the flawless girl I admired, and Noah, the young man for whom my heart so longed.

I really liked Noah, and I think if it weren’t for these feelings, I would have sincerely blessed the relationship between those two.

“Noah has been worried about you recently.
He has such a good heart, you know.”

Flora was right; Noah did indeed have a warm heart.
However, unlike his actions towards her, all of his kindness and gentle mannerisms towards me were weightless.
His warm-hearted treatment towards me was not uniquely for me.
Despite me thinking that every single little smile he directed at me or every positive word he said to me was some kind of sign of special affection, it was all in my head.
His interactions with Flora, on the other hand, were more intimate and meaningful, I’m sure.

Perhaps it would have been better had I never met Noah.
Had I never set eyes on him and never felt his touch upon me, I never would have experienced this emotional torture.

If it wasn’t for this vague, one-sided feeling I had for him, then maybe…

“Oh no! I had better get going.”

Flora’s voice came rushing back to my consciousness, having been muffled from me being trapped deep in thought.
She was looking at her cute little watch with an alarmed expression.

“I’ll see you later, Kate.
Enjoy the snacks and good luck with your classes.”

She waved her hand goodbye to me and she ran off out of sight in the distance, like an angel disappearing amongst the clouds.
She definitely was an angel, that girl.
I subtly bit down on my lower lip.

… Why couldn’t I be the lead female character? Why did I just have to be an extra, a minor one at that?